So... What now?
Wonder whats wrong...
Does it really matter?
True friends...
how long!
Mallu boys.. Gods!
How much do i really matter ?
Apparently not enough..
Have i reached a limit?
Bah!
Go on...
Where'd you go?
What to do!
-sniff sniff-
Don't some people just get it?
food...
T-shirt episodes of fun...!?
Friday!
Photography... Sigh...
What to do now!
Need to find a solution...
Just so gone!
Yes, I do think of all of this and more at one time... I know... I think a lot.
Cheers! :)
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
How does it work again?
Listen... You hear nothing.
Speak... You are deaf.
Understand... That is stupidity.
Care... There is nothing there.
It's my life you say,
People have a role in it i think.
It's my right you say,
I have mine too, i think.
We do what we want to do,
where do the others fit in?
"It's all about the he said, she said bullshit"
It always will be.
The way you think, is the right way for you.
It always will be.
The world is a weird place...
so are my people in it.
And it always will be.
Sigh... Again... The weird way people act and react to situations in life... Always concludes as yes, indeed, People Are Strange.
Cheers!
Speak... You are deaf.
Understand... That is stupidity.
Care... There is nothing there.
It's my life you say,
People have a role in it i think.
It's my right you say,
I have mine too, i think.
We do what we want to do,
where do the others fit in?
"It's all about the he said, she said bullshit"
It always will be.
The way you think, is the right way for you.
It always will be.
The world is a weird place...
so are my people in it.
And it always will be.
Sigh... Again... The weird way people act and react to situations in life... Always concludes as yes, indeed, People Are Strange.
Cheers!
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Some photography...
These are some pics i took on the Nile cruise... My fellow mates.. any good for time and space?
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Conversations...
Stoned guy, me and P!
P : That guy is checkin you out.. He's so stoned!
Me : Haha! ugh!
P : He's coming over... hehe!
Stoned guy : Hi.. your drinking lime soda..
Me : yes.....
Stoned guy : Not cool.. Drink beer!
P : She doesnt like beer.
Stoned : oh.. not cool. [to P] your drinking beer.
P : ya. i know.
Stoned guy : [after Ages!] so... what-are-you-girls-doing-here?
Me : Um..
P : Just like that.
Stoned : You should drink beer.
Me : Ok.
Stoned : So, how come just two girls? You don't often see just two girls come like this.
P : Ya well, we like spending time together.
Stoned guy : [really slooowwwly] So... you girls.... are... together then?
P : yes.
Stoned : Oh.
Stoned : Guess where my girlfriend is from! Guess! Guess!
Me and P together : Kazhakistan! Pakistan! Christ college!?
Stoned : No... Kuwait!
Us : oh.
Stoned : [to me] My girlfriend thinks i don't have good bisceps. Why do you think?
Me : Ask her!
Stoned : But I did!
Me : What did she say?
Stoned : No, tell me what you think!
Me : Ask her!
Stoned : No.......
Me : Ok.
P : [comes back] So... You were telling us about your ex girlfriend!
Stoned : Ex?
P : [oops] No, i meant your girlfriend. Girlfriend.
Stoned : No... Tell me... Why do you think ex?
P : No, tell me... your girlfriend.
Stoned : hmm. What do you do? where do you study?
Us :Near here only.
Stoned : oh. ok. Where...do...you...live...again?
Me : near here.
Stoned : ok.
Hahahaha! the whole conversation is big and he spoke sooo slooow!!! Funny!!! P man... Your the girl! Girls rule!!
P : That guy is checkin you out.. He's so stoned!
Me : Haha! ugh!
P : He's coming over... hehe!
Stoned guy : Hi.. your drinking lime soda..
Me : yes.....
Stoned guy : Not cool.. Drink beer!
P : She doesnt like beer.
Stoned : oh.. not cool. [to P] your drinking beer.
P : ya. i know.
Stoned guy : [after Ages!] so... what-are-you-girls-doing-here?
Me : Um..
P : Just like that.
Stoned : You should drink beer.
Me : Ok.
Stoned : So, how come just two girls? You don't often see just two girls come like this.
P : Ya well, we like spending time together.
Stoned guy : [really slooowwwly] So... you girls.... are... together then?
P : yes.
Stoned : Oh.
Stoned : Guess where my girlfriend is from! Guess! Guess!
Me and P together : Kazhakistan! Pakistan! Christ college!?
Stoned : No... Kuwait!
Us : oh.
Stoned : [to me] My girlfriend thinks i don't have good bisceps. Why do you think?
Me : Ask her!
Stoned : But I did!
Me : What did she say?
Stoned : No, tell me what you think!
Me : Ask her!
Stoned : No.......
Me : Ok.
P : [comes back] So... You were telling us about your ex girlfriend!
Stoned : Ex?
P : [oops] No, i meant your girlfriend. Girlfriend.
Stoned : No... Tell me... Why do you think ex?
P : No, tell me... your girlfriend.
Stoned : hmm. What do you do? where do you study?
Us :Near here only.
Stoned : oh. ok. Where...do...you...live...again?
Me : near here.
Stoned : ok.
Hahahaha! the whole conversation is big and he spoke sooo slooow!!! Funny!!! P man... Your the girl! Girls rule!!
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Egypt!
In love with that place!! From offerings to Amon Ra to picking up crocs to Nile cruise to bakshish!! Not to mention that loooonnng list of temples visited!! Perfect holiday ever!
And yes... of course, the many wonderful pictures taken by the DSLR... sigh...
The pyramids, trust me, are not all that great... your driving in the middle of the city, traffic and everything... and suddenly the guide says, look to your left... and behold! the wonder of the world! It is indeed hyped and not all that magnificant if you ask me...
Horus! My god of protection! Son of Isis and Osiris! The moment i learnt about Horus, he was my god... Each one of my friends have their own gods of worship now... Weird I know...If you ever go to Egypt, You must eat the food there... delicious! and visit the market! Its so much fun bargaining with them! [be sure you have the time for it though!] Buy some essence... Its good stuff.
There are a LOT of temples.. so be prepared to admire ancient art and architecure... Too much "guide-lecture" may bore you though...
Life can sure be funn sometimes! :)
Cheers!
Confused reality...
IT happens........... People change.
IT happens........... They turn back.
IT happens........... Memories blur.
IT happens.......... You walk away.
IT happens.......... Eyes see.
IT happens.......... Fools feed.
IT happens.......... There wont be a reason.
IT happens.......... Its not just the season.
IT happens.......... You may laugh.
IT happens.......... It could be a mask.
IT happens.......... There will be questions.
shIT happens...... And thats the simple answer.
This was thoughts i had in class about another person's life.... very random again... i know... i may add more later... anyways shIT happens!
cheers! :)
IT happens........... They turn back.
IT happens........... Memories blur.
IT happens.......... You walk away.
IT happens.......... Eyes see.
IT happens.......... Fools feed.
IT happens.......... There wont be a reason.
IT happens.......... Its not just the season.
IT happens.......... You may laugh.
IT happens.......... It could be a mask.
IT happens.......... There will be questions.
shIT happens...... And thats the simple answer.
This was thoughts i had in class about another person's life.... very random again... i know... i may add more later... anyways shIT happens!
cheers! :)
Happy b day...?
It's a weird day, it really is...
I have an exam tomorrow and here i am... feeling weird...
It has been a good day, there is no denying that... and yet, there is something missing... It's just Not complete... But then again, you can't have it all!
I am 19 today... I Do feel 19... but there are times i feel 18,17,16,15,14....5! Those are days of my life too... just plain memories as i look back on them today.
18, i must say, was by far my most eventful year! EVERYTHING happened then! Past, present, future... I got a blunt glimpse of it all...
Friends, have indeed played a very important role in my life! Some may not know it... But they really do matter... and so does what they say.
It does feel nice when a lot of people wish you on your birthday doesn't it? Especially when its someone you don't really expect!
Which is better? Being the first one to wish or the last one to wish?I guess different people have different philosophies! No wonder I've been getting calls and messages all day long!!! :):):)
Oh, and birthday wishes do come true! You know... the ones you make before blowing of the candle on your cake...? [matchstick in my case!] Things like that really Do make your day !
Oh well... summing it all up... It doesn't matter that I had to be there for a devastated close friend cause he lost someone precious and had to face the horrors of death, or the fact that i still kind of, li'l bit wish Somebody would wish me, Or that my best friend a.k.a stoopid sista is half asleep on the bed listening to random music and messaging some random guy!
It doesn't even matter that i have an exam tomorrow and i don't know what I'm going to write!..... well... ok... maybe that matters a li'l...!
I am 19 today!!! My last teenage year!!! And I'm going to make the most of it!!!
-walks away in absolute teenage rebellion-
P.S: Well... there is also the whole shit about I am going to be responsible and mature now like dad wants me to be and everything... but what the hell, won't really bore you or myself with that!! :):)
Cheers!
I have an exam tomorrow and here i am... feeling weird...
It has been a good day, there is no denying that... and yet, there is something missing... It's just Not complete... But then again, you can't have it all!
I am 19 today... I Do feel 19... but there are times i feel 18,17,16,15,14....5! Those are days of my life too... just plain memories as i look back on them today.
18, i must say, was by far my most eventful year! EVERYTHING happened then! Past, present, future... I got a blunt glimpse of it all...
Friends, have indeed played a very important role in my life! Some may not know it... But they really do matter... and so does what they say.
It does feel nice when a lot of people wish you on your birthday doesn't it? Especially when its someone you don't really expect!
Which is better? Being the first one to wish or the last one to wish?I guess different people have different philosophies! No wonder I've been getting calls and messages all day long!!! :):):)
Oh, and birthday wishes do come true! You know... the ones you make before blowing of the candle on your cake...? [matchstick in my case!] Things like that really Do make your day !
Oh well... summing it all up... It doesn't matter that I had to be there for a devastated close friend cause he lost someone precious and had to face the horrors of death, or the fact that i still kind of, li'l bit wish Somebody would wish me, Or that my best friend a.k.a stoopid sista is half asleep on the bed listening to random music and messaging some random guy!
It doesn't even matter that i have an exam tomorrow and i don't know what I'm going to write!..... well... ok... maybe that matters a li'l...!
I am 19 today!!! My last teenage year!!! And I'm going to make the most of it!!!
-walks away in absolute teenage rebellion-
P.S: Well... there is also the whole shit about I am going to be responsible and mature now like dad wants me to be and everything... but what the hell, won't really bore you or myself with that!! :):)
Cheers!
Bleh
Its funny how you can just wake up in the morning sometimes and know your day is going to be all wrong... few things will be right... few you expect to go wrong... few... well, just happen!
Thats when this feeling of Blehness creeps into you... Its not happy, its not really sad... its not even truly angry... You feel hate, yes.. But you could also be thinking of something very deeply...
Its when you want to be left like that... You know it will pass... But when its here, some people rather accept it. It makes you want to sigh and breathe deeply, it makes you want to just be pissed off and shout at someone, it makes you want to cry, get drunk, listen to loud music...
But it will pass... It will come again, no doubt... But again, it will pass...
Yes children, thats the circle of life.
Thats when this feeling of Blehness creeps into you... Its not happy, its not really sad... its not even truly angry... You feel hate, yes.. But you could also be thinking of something very deeply...
Its when you want to be left like that... You know it will pass... But when its here, some people rather accept it. It makes you want to sigh and breathe deeply, it makes you want to just be pissed off and shout at someone, it makes you want to cry, get drunk, listen to loud music...
But it will pass... It will come again, no doubt... But again, it will pass...
Yes children, thats the circle of life.
Just plain weird!
Hmm... who is it i wonder?
That makes things so, and then plunder.
What to do What to do What to do?
This need to stop it is nothing new.
Is there somebody either way,
wonder where the true feelings really lay.
Jealous, betrayed or just disappointed?
Wait or .......?
Happiness is momentary.
It is one, alone feeling to battle away the many that come more easily.
Brother, don't worry, I know you have faith.
Me, I don't know - how is it to keep faith?
Is it good? Is it bad? Is it simply something they lack?
Blank faces, faces filled with love... Some just show the mask they cover.
Cover your face, cover your mind,
Who you really are, who knows? Your just lying.
There is very li'l of you,
there really is.
When you look at me,
you know what it is...
People are strange,
They always were i guess..
But brother you see,
Its also you and me.
Its just plain weird,
how things turn out to be...
P.S: Each one of these stanzas were written keeping different people in mind. and also the events that took place...
Just my usual conclusions on how people can be so strange! :)
Cheers!
That makes things so, and then plunder.
What to do What to do What to do?
This need to stop it is nothing new.
Is there somebody either way,
wonder where the true feelings really lay.
Jealous, betrayed or just disappointed?
Wait or .......?
Happiness is momentary.
It is one, alone feeling to battle away the many that come more easily.
Brother, don't worry, I know you have faith.
Me, I don't know - how is it to keep faith?
Is it good? Is it bad? Is it simply something they lack?
Blank faces, faces filled with love... Some just show the mask they cover.
Cover your face, cover your mind,
Who you really are, who knows? Your just lying.
There is very li'l of you,
there really is.
When you look at me,
you know what it is...
People are strange,
They always were i guess..
But brother you see,
Its also you and me.
Its just plain weird,
how things turn out to be...
P.S: Each one of these stanzas were written keeping different people in mind. and also the events that took place...
Just my usual conclusions on how people can be so strange! :)
Cheers!
Random thoughts...
It is like... the bottom of an endless pit,
It is like an itch u cannot scratch,
it is like taking 1 step forward, and two steps behind, and 1 step forward again.
It is like the law that was never written,
It is like a book with no ending,
It is like that one song.
It is like the photo frame with no photo,
It is like the half-burnt cigarette,
It is like the unfinished conversation.
It is like the far away thought,
It is like an unknown country,
It is like a hidden away memory.
It is like something behind you,
It is like shadows on the wall,
It is like growing insanity.
It is like the wayward wind,
It is like the lonely horse,
It is like random thoughts.
It is like your old old friend,
It is like an unknown feeling,
It is... just... like that.
You know? like that.
It is like an itch u cannot scratch,
it is like taking 1 step forward, and two steps behind, and 1 step forward again.
It is like the law that was never written,
It is like a book with no ending,
It is like that one song.
It is like the photo frame with no photo,
It is like the half-burnt cigarette,
It is like the unfinished conversation.
It is like the far away thought,
It is like an unknown country,
It is like a hidden away memory.
It is like something behind you,
It is like shadows on the wall,
It is like growing insanity.
It is like the wayward wind,
It is like the lonely horse,
It is like random thoughts.
It is like your old old friend,
It is like an unknown feeling,
It is... just... like that.
You know? like that.
True friendship..
Everybody has a somebody...
They may not be like a boyfren or girlfren, but your best frend.
And not the best frens like u go out for lunch wit them and sit with them in class. It will be one person.One person who understands you when nobody does. One person who you can call Your best frend. Almost like one person who is yours. You can share everything or just nothing with this person... it really doesnt matter. They just know you anyways. They know your faults, they are there for you when nobody else can be... and they even know you keep secrets about you from them. But never will they complain. They will fight with you, but one silly poem or stupid joke will put that right.
They will stay forever. They will be yours. When the day comes for them to choose a path to walk with the one they care about the most, they will choose you. Over everybody else. That proud moment when they say Yes, you shall be my bridesmaid, or best man. That one moment when they fight for you with somebody stronger than them. That is all that matters.
I wonder if everybody has a best frend like that... they all seem to. Yet they complain that they are empty, that nobody loves them.
You may loose a man/woman you love, but if you have this kind a best fren... thats all you need. They will always be there to understand you.
Then there are other frends who come into our life and go... They seem like they mite be the perfect best fren... but they are taken... they already have their perfect best frend. You are just... There. They care for you but....
I wonder where mine is.....
They may not be like a boyfren or girlfren, but your best frend.
And not the best frens like u go out for lunch wit them and sit with them in class. It will be one person.One person who understands you when nobody does. One person who you can call Your best frend. Almost like one person who is yours. You can share everything or just nothing with this person... it really doesnt matter. They just know you anyways. They know your faults, they are there for you when nobody else can be... and they even know you keep secrets about you from them. But never will they complain. They will fight with you, but one silly poem or stupid joke will put that right.
They will stay forever. They will be yours. When the day comes for them to choose a path to walk with the one they care about the most, they will choose you. Over everybody else. That proud moment when they say Yes, you shall be my bridesmaid, or best man. That one moment when they fight for you with somebody stronger than them. That is all that matters.
I wonder if everybody has a best frend like that... they all seem to. Yet they complain that they are empty, that nobody loves them.
You may loose a man/woman you love, but if you have this kind a best fren... thats all you need. They will always be there to understand you.
Then there are other frends who come into our life and go... They seem like they mite be the perfect best fren... but they are taken... they already have their perfect best frend. You are just... There. They care for you but....
I wonder where mine is.....
Addictions...
No worries! this is not a social topic where im gonna say they are bad, dont do it and stuff!! :)
what im talking about are the small addictions... Like when you are addicted to one song and you cant get it out of your head or your playlist!!! Or like that one snack you just HAVTA have when you reach home or when you lay your eyes on it!
Its just really weird.... and you turn to them especially when your going thru something intense most of the times... but i guess its ok as long as its not really harming you seriously... but do these addictions really help? i mean is it just all in your head?
but in a way that doesnt matter if it IS all in your head.. it helps you get rid of whatever your trying to atleast momentarily right?
Try these harmless addictions when you need to:
what im talking about are the small addictions... Like when you are addicted to one song and you cant get it out of your head or your playlist!!! Or like that one snack you just HAVTA have when you reach home or when you lay your eyes on it!
Its just really weird.... and you turn to them especially when your going thru something intense most of the times... but i guess its ok as long as its not really harming you seriously... but do these addictions really help? i mean is it just all in your head?
but in a way that doesnt matter if it IS all in your head.. it helps you get rid of whatever your trying to atleast momentarily right?
Try these harmless addictions when you need to:
- Music!!! - tops my list... look for songs that define your mood
- Non-poisonous, edible food... small quantities at different times...not all at once!
- Writing maybe?
- play some game.... you can get addicted to it cuz you need to concentrate and get your mind of things...
- a place... maybe that place just gives you "That" feeling you know? like you need to be there...
- books.... take to reading one kind of book... mostly the kind you can connect with at that time!
This is me
this is me
absolute randomness
absolute absurdity
absolute need
absolute state of blankness
I Wish...........!
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